When Things are Looking Bleak, What Else is Possible?

It's been awhile since I wrote anything. I've been concentrating on starting my own company: Fido 'n Felix, which launched at the end of April 2011.  www.fidofelix.com

My goals in starting this business — besides the desire to become self-sufficient* —are:
– to provide dogs, cats and their owners exceptional, individual attention.
– to get out from behind a desk and do what I love:
     and two things I love are: being with animals and being in nature.

And so I created a business where I get to soak up kitty love, plus doggie love while walking in Central Park. Not too shabby, if I do say so myself. Can't honestly say I'm looking forward to winter, but it still beats sitting in a cubical day in, day out.

– and truth-be-told, I'm so excited about Reconnective Healing®, as well as The Emotion Code, I trust (hope) that by offering these services for the animals and their parents in my care, word of mouth will spread.

To reiterate, my immediate goals that would mean sooo much to me are: I am financially self-sufficient; I enjoy animal love while walking in NYC parks throughout the day; I attract people who are interested in having healings facilitated for themselves and/or their beloved pets.

And my HUGE GOAL is:
- I'm a re-known healing practitioner — for people, their pets & all animals — and I facilitate healings world-wide for animal sanctuaries, shelters, adoption centers (animals and babies/children), vet clinics, zoos…
There are sooooo many animals (and children) who have emotional disturbances who may otherwise be given up on, who were badly abused, who are scared and/or depressed, who no longer trust, etc. etc. I create the possibility of working with these animals (and children) — in addition to numerous healthy, happy, loved pets and people who, ya know, would simply appreciate some extra TLC and get some emotional, mental, spiritual and/or physical kinks worked out.

  
Here is my current "reality":
*I'm not joking about the self-sufficient part. Let's just say at this point in my life, I'm definitely part of the 99%. For those readers who don't understand this reference, you can check out http://www.occupytogether.org/. 
I landed my first client in June. My schedule is only half full (with enough income to pay half my bills), while servicing the Upper West Side of NYC -- and this is dog-landia!
It's also dog walker-landia, but I do my best not to subscribe to the competitive, or lack, mindset. I believe there are enough pooches here to fill my schedule. Heck, four more clients would do it!! How easy is that!? And yet its been a month since I signed a steady client. What would it take to change this? 

My thoughts have been spiraling to, "What am I doing wrong?" and "Why is this not happening for me?" And so I was inspired to write this post today because I responded to one of Jill Sullivan Grueter's blogs, who is team leader of Project Pawsitive (projectpawsitive.com), when she wrote her thoughts can also spiral to "what am I doing wrong?" Here is an excerpt of what I wrote:
let's destroy and un-create your expression, "what am i doing wrong?" nothing! absolutely nothing. that thought will only wear you out, as it's not empowering.

And so I decided to give myself my own advice, through this blog.
And write my goals for myself, and all, to see.
And keep going with my positive affirmations and thoughts, per Gregg Braden, Dr. Deepak Chopra, Dr. Dain Heer of Access Concsiousness, Terry Cole-Whittaker, Louis Hay, and numerous others.

I know we create our own realities.
I am aware our inner world reflects our outer world. I think my inner world is full of so much positivity and love that I'm not sure why I'm seeing lack of any kind. I'm baffled, as are those who know me. I guess I need to trust The Universe even more, and really be aware of any "negative" thoughts I have so I can re-write them. And I definitely have dark thoughts and days, especially when I feel overwhelmed, scared, alone, and wondering where rent will come from.

And so I end by asking, "What would it take for this…day, month, quarter, year… to turn out better than I could've imagined? And what is right about my current "situation" that I'm not getting?"

I do know the animals in my care appreciate me, and their parents are very happy with my services.
I know word of mouth will spread.
I know people are more and more open to healing modalities, and the modalities I practice are now known world-wide, thanks to the persistence of Dr. Eric Pearl, Dr. Bradley Nelson,  and their amazing teams.
I know mentalities are shifting and people want change.
I know a shift in consciousness is happening.

I know more is possible.